Sharing a page from my personal journal today :)
Today I stood on the step of my porch and watched in awe as the giant cottonwood tree behind my house released thousands upon thousands of cotton seed. Snowing down mounds and mounds of cotton. It swirled and whirled and as I looked up into the sky. I felt a little like Alice; in a giant glass globe where someone had just finished shaking it. Delicate fluffy flakes of snow swirling all around me. Coating the flowers and bushes, the green grass, everything it touched, Covered in fluff.
I’ve never seen anything like it.. And it just kept coming. At first, it was magical, let’s go out and dance in it! Then the sneezing, allergies kicks in, it sticks to EVERYTHING, it keeps coming.. Can I knit with this?? :/ And I started to get a little irritated, how long does this sucker go?? 3 Weeks.. Really? WTH.
All yard work has ceased. What’s the point really.. 10 minutes and you are covered in floof.. Yes, there are reprieves here and there, but when it’s not snowing down floof, there is enough floof covered grass and bushes to make up for it. I don’t even know where to BEGIN to dig out my flowers.. And the space where my vegetables were to be planted.. Well, it looks like perhaps a sheep has exploded.. Poor sheep.
This has been my mind set…I’ve been grumbling…And then I stopped. Where was my gratitude? My initial reaction to seeing this was one of awe; it was magical. Calming. And then I went a step further. How many times in my life have I allowed irritation to creep in and take over; when life does not look like how I imagined it would? How I imagined it should? Why am I still so intent on making a life that has to look a certain way? Has that not been my recipe for heartache? I have learned, good & bad, life is perfect, and has been perfect in teaching me the lessons that I’ve set out to learn. SO STOP CONTROLLING HOW IT LOOKS, & JUST ACCEPT IT FOR WHAT IT IS. And be grateful for what is.
I am so grateful. So fortunate. I LOVE my life. I love being able to create every day. I am afforded the privilege of working at home and providing for my family and I am grateful. And so blessed. Lately, I have allowed myself to get caught up in worry, and in doubt. I’ve been stressing; something big.. Honestly, It’s been a bit of a struggle lately keeping up with the finances of life, I see businesses closing left and right and when I let it :) it stresses me out.. Whew.. That’s a big one.. But when I had this thought of gratitude for everything that I have, for everything that I have been able to give my children… I was instantly flooded with such peace and such calm, I can’t explain it.. But it was such a gift.
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